I want to be Happy

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人
都多就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

* I like this song. Is from Ah Mei. Today morning, when I listen this song, I notice this verse -把从前想了一遍 谢谢了伤我的人-, means Look back to the past, thanks for those people who hurt me.

Sometimes we are mad for those people who hurt me so much. But when you think positively, you have to thank them, because they let you grow up. But if you think to negative way, you will lost your trust to your friends, cuz you scared that they will be like those people that hurt you.

Look back to my previous post, you all know that I had a conflict with my CG members. Many people ask me why? Many people comfort me. Really wan to give them a warm hug. :) But some people know this and do not bother about it. No matter what, there are a scar in my heart and between me and some CG members. My friend said, maybe you are the 1st time get betrayed from your friends, so you will be so sad for so long. Then I started to think, what if my friends always betray me? I cannot afford it. I can be that sad cuz I put FRIENDS at the 1st place in my heart, and what I get is BETRAYED! I don't meant that I want somethings from friends, but I dont want be BETRAYED.

When there are human, there sure got problem. Cindy told me that actually those people who got brain problems, eg. a big guy with a kids brain, (I don't mean to offense) will be more happy than a normal man. That's true? I don't know.

Worries everywhere. For me, I just want to be HAPPY.